It’s week 6 of the lockdown in Austria and I’ve not once posted about the corona isolation and situation here because I just really didn’t feel like it. Everyone pretends to be so positive about it and to make the most out of it. And I have tried and partly succeeded, but I’d be lying to say I’ve always been happily enjoying my “free time”.

Don’t get me wrong, I think we all need to look out for each other now and it’s terrible what’s happening around the world right now. So I’m not gonna talk about this here, since this is not the place. I hope all of you are doing fine and are safe at home though!

So what I wanted to share today are some things I really started missing and that I’m looking forward to after this crisis has passed. I’m also gonna talk about some things I worry about or that make me sad and angry at the moment. I’m sorry if this post is a bit whiny and I’m complaining too much. I know there is much worse things happening in the world. But I just wanted to write this blogpost because I felt like sharing my feelings instead of just holding them in. Life’s not always sunny and bright, and that’s okay. So if you don’t like these kind of posts, please don’t be annoyed. There will a be a happy, inspiring and cheerful blogpost soon again. It would just feel fake and pretentious if I didn’t share bad feelings as well ❤️.

1. I miss seeing my friends in person

What I miss most right now is seeing my friends in person: going on coffee and breakfast dates, hanging out during uni breaks, going to see a movie, having girls nights, going out for drinks, etc. I hope we can soon get back to our normal life pre-corona! In the meantime, Skype and phone calls are keeping us connected.

2. I want to attend my university classes in person

I’ve been studying from home since universities in Austria closed on March 11th. And we won’t go back to uni at all this semester at all!!
… And I don’t like it. I prefer going to uni, interacting with teachers and fellow students and just enjoying my time in class and going for a coffee with my friends after class.
It’s also A LOT more work to study from home and most profs have increased the workload significantly. It can also get really, really boring for some of my classes where it’s just reading powerpoints and taking notes. I don’t mind online classes (via Zoom or MS teams), in fact I prefer them to self-studying because at least you connect with people, can ask questions or clarify things you need to know.
I’m actually very sad we won’t go back to uni at all this semester, but I’m hoping that I can finish all my courses at least.

3. I’m worried about graduating

I was supposed to graduate with my bachelor’s degree in June. I’m hopeful that it will still be possible but nobody knows how things will go in the end.

4. I don’t know when I’ll get to see my long distance boyfriend again

I’m in a long distance relationship. And being apart is always hard. But not knowing when to see your significant other next is a different-level-kinda-hard. I’m not going to go into detail, but we were supposed to move in with each other in June and close the distance. Knowing this won’t happen anytime soon (due to the current crisis) is heart-breaking. To be honest, it really sucks. And sometimes, I’m not just sad but really angry at the universe for the situation we’re in right now. But we’re being hopeful that we can at least see each other some time in late summer or fall. Wish us luck!

What do you miss? What are you angry, sad or worried about?

Let me know in the comments! Feel free to rant, complain and let it all out! Sometimes this helps a lot to feel better. I already feel better after writing this rant of a blogpost! Wishing you all well ❤️

Love, Stefanie